my poor baby Lexie :(

I am soooo upset about our dog, Lexie. monday was such a horrible day.
She was sleeping and went into a full seizure... she even stopped breathing. She finally started to come out of it but was so disoriented, like she was blind. Dale carried her into the truck and she fell out twice. He sped to the vet and she tried to give her a shot of Valium but it has to be given in a vein in the front leg. They both tried to keep her still but couldn't. So she sent them home with pills.
Now she has to have 2 pills per day for the rest of her life. She can still have seizures but this drug is suppose to shorten them. So, I am still scared.

It's unbelievable how the people in your life think nothing of this. But the ones that DO care are ones you don't know nearly as well or live far away. I am so thankful to my oldest step-daughter for helping us a week ago when she came to visit. I don't know what I would've done without her!!

My neck and arm are killing me and the shot hurt like a mother. I'm not looking forward to the surgery but it's got to get done.

God, I hate this month. I miss my dad so much. I still dream about him.

wasn't this cheerful??

more than this?

ugh... I'm trying so hard not to let all these things get to me. If I can just get through the physical pain without passing out from it...seriously. At times I wonder if I'm on this earth to be the medical communities guinea pig.

I am not feeling sorry for myself but I wish I could get a short break perhaps.

As far as the other stuff goes, time will tell. I can only do what I'm capable of... and apparently, I can't save the world...so I've been told.

ah well... maybe I can save a fraction of it